Monday, February 3, 2014


I'm sitting here procrastinating about working my way through a free printable coaching course on 'getting unstuck'.  Today has been a banner day, I have filled in paperwork that has been hanging over me like the Sword of Damacles, and now it is DONE, and I can let it go.

I have signed up for a course that I am not looking forward to, I fear it will be practical and unfeeling and not at all the way I like to do things, but it is a legal requirement that I attend, so go I must.

I have battled fear today, and won, for now.

And now I am trying to become 'unstuck'.

My calendar challenge for January was this...

and there was a lot to learn in that short inspiration.  I did let my voice out, I did raise it a little, and it felt good to have a little power.  I did say 'no' and I did say 'enough', I did speak up.  

February, however, is going to be tougher... 

I know the answers to these questions, but I am afraid to step forward, uncertain of where the path goes, or how much there will be to learn, juggle, find money for - 8 months have passed, and I'm still 'doing it scared' in a lot of ways.

What makes your heart sing?

What is it that most arouses your passion... and what are you willing to risk?

This is the difficult part, what AM  I willing to risk?  Where will I stop?  What is 'too much'?  Where is 'too far?'.

"She discovers what she was born to do" - it's going to be quite a month!

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Say Something.

it hurts to let go, but sometimes it is just what needs to be done.  This week has been a turning point for me, conversations, experiences, thoughts, and inspirations, all dropped into my consciousness in a very short space of time, and something inside me began shifting.  And then, finally, this song.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Anywhere I would have followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

This song haunts my heart, I hear it in my sleep, it speaks to me.

It is time to let go of my old life, of the hurt and the fear and the disappointment.  It is time to give up on some things that just aren't going to work out in a good way.  The song says so.  I AM sorry that I couldn't get to you, but that's not my fault, and it's okay to stop trying.

And so, inspired by the work and words of writer Lissa Rankin, by the power of my NIA dance teacher Pauline, and by the beauty of this song, I am letting go, and letting be.  I am resting, waiting, not grasping for what I think I want or need, but giving it up to the Universe, and letting new things come to me.

I'm giving up on you, I'm cutting you loose, letting go of needing to know where or how you are, I'm giving up on you, but I'm not giving up on ME.

Inspired by NIA, I am RAW, Relaxed, Alert, and Waiting.

I have no idea what might be in store for me, but I know that chasing it won't make it happen if it's not meant to happen.  So say nothing if that's what you want, or fight for my attention if you think that's what you need - either way is fine with me, I'm letting go now, and there's nothing you can do about that.

I am untouchable because I have let go.